"So is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it" (Isaiah 55:11 NIV).
I knew I was pregnant with him before I had any signs, evidence, or proof. My son, Kedar, is turning 7 years old tomorrow. But, before he was even a twinkle in my eye, during my prayer and worship time, I heard an audible voice speak to me and tell me that I was having a baby boy.
At first, I thought, "Okay, wait a minute! Am I going crazy?" Besides, my hubby Kenya and I weren't even trying for a baby at that time.
Now, I know that may sound odd. Trust me. I'm a skeptic by nature and it can be difficult to convince me of something without evidence. But, that day, I just knew it was the Lord speaking to me.
I knew that I knew that I knew!
And when I called my husband at work to tell him the news that we were pregnant, without having gone to the doctor or taken a pregnancy test, surprisingly, he didn't bat an eye! He told me, "If you believe God said it, then I'm believing with you."
Looking retrospectively, it amazes me that neither one of us had any doubt whatsoever that what I'd heard from the Lord was both true and valid.
I had no clue, however, that the next 3 months would try my faith and conviction like nothing else. The store-bought pregnancy test I took came back negative. The test I took at the OB/GYN was negative too. Even the blood test said no! Then, when my favorite nurse, Judy, gave me an early sonogram, she saw nothing. Not a hint of anything that gave any indication that I had a bun in the oven.
After weeks passed inclusive of several trips to see the doctor with the same disappointing results, I began to doubt myself and feel like I must be crazy. So, one day, I told Kenya (who never wavered once, by the way), "Babe, I'm gonna make one more appointment and if the results are negative, I'll just accept that I was wrong."
I'm sure you can imagine how excited I was and how shocked my nurse was to discover that I was indeed pregnant. Not only that, but all the signs (once they finally showed up!) indicated that my time line was spot on. I had been pregnant the whole time. But, the reason why it didn't show up is because, Nurse Judy told me, it was just too early to detect the pregnancy.
I was pregnant with no tangible proof... but pregnant nonetheless. I knew by revelation what could not yet be validated through manifestation. Then, after the truth came out, I was able to witness to my nurse because she was so in awe of what had transpired in my life...but that's another post for another day.
Anyway... every year, when we celebrate Kedar's birthday, I'm reminded of this experience in my life. And my faith is built anew. Our son is a child of promise and is the manifestation of a word the Lord spoke to me one day while I was basking in His presence.
I don't typically share this story, but I felt led to do so today. I believe someone reading this is struggling to believe the Lord. But, God still speaks today and don't you let any person or circumstance make you believe otherwise.
Today, if you're wrestling with the fact that your reality doesn't line up with what God has spoken to your spirit, believe God anyway. And know that, if He said it, He will bring it to pass.
Today's Prayer: God, help me to still believe and stand on your word even when what's going on in my world doesn't seem to back up what you say. And please give me the strength to stand in faith while awaiting manifestation. In Jesus' name, amen.
