You have to believe Him.
I started reflecting on this today because yesterday was our son Kedar’s 11th birthday. And every year, on September 23rd, I reflect back on the time God took my faith to a whole new level.
I have told you about this before and I must admit, it would sound absolutely crazy to me if it hadn’t happened to me.
That’s how out-the-box it was.
Now, if you already know this story, I still want you to follow along with me, because there is new revelation the Lord wants to bring out of it for us today.
I knew I was pregnant with our son before I had any proof at all.
During my prayer and worship time more than a decade ago, I heard an audible voice speak to me and tell me that I was having a baby boy.
At first, I thought, Wayment (wait a minute)! Am I going crazy?
Besides, my husband Kenya and I, already proud parents of two daughters, weren't even trying for a baby at that time.
Furthermore, I am a skeptic by nature and it can be difficult to convince me of anything. That day, though, I knew what I heard was real.
You see, it was during a time of intense consecration in my life. I made intentional efforts to draw near to God.
Every morning at 4:30, I would get up and just hang out in His presence. I prayed, pulled out my study Bible, took notes, ran references and just absorbed all I could spiritually.
This changed me. I was more in tune with God and sensitive to His leading. During intense moments of fellowship, I would just weep in His presence, pour out my heart, empty my soul and allow Him to fill me up again.
What went on was so beautiful and hard to describe.
But anyway, on this particular day, I was fully engrossed in worship.
And boy did He ever make Himself known to me.
After that encounter, I called my husband at work to tell him the news that we were pregnant.
Without having gone to the doctor or taken a pregnancy test, surprisingly, he didn't doubt it. He told me, "If you believe God said it, then I'm believing with you."
Looking retrospectively, it amazes me that neither of us second-guessed it and didn't wonder about my sanity either.
I also told my mother she was going to be a grandma again and that it was a boy. She, too, was fully on board. To this day, she speaks of that time often.
I had no clue, however, that the next three months would try my faith and conviction like nothing else.
The store-bought pregnancy test I took came back negative. The test I took at the OB/GYN was negative too. Even the blood test said no!
Then, when my favorite nurse, Judy, gave me an early sonogram, she saw nothing. Not a hint of anything that gave any indication that I had a bun in the oven.
After weeks passed, inclusive of several trips to see the doctor with the same disappointing results, for the first time, I wavered.
Doubt crept up and I thought, maybe I am a little crazy.
Just a lil’ bit loopy, you know?
So, one day, at my lowest point, I told Kenya, "Babe, I'm gonna make one more appointment and if the results are negative, I'll just accept that I was wrong."
He assured me that I wasn’t wrong.
I was the one who had personally had the encounter and his faith was stronger than my own.
Well, that next trip to the doctor left me overjoyed (and somewhat shocked) when my nurse discovered that I was indeed pregnant.
She was ecstatic about it too.
You see, we were close.
She had been there through my first miscarriage and two subsequent successful births. We had a really tight bond and got along great. She was like a member of our family.
I remember how Judy shared a lot of personal things with me when she found out I was a Believer, although she wasn’t.
She had questions, concerns and genuinely wanted to learn more about what fueled my faith in Jesus Christ. Sometimes, my visits would last for a couple hours, not because of any lengthy procedures, but because of our in-depth discussions.
It was really cool.
I loved sharing the love of Christ. Still do, even when I don’t see eye-to-eye with the hearer.
Over time, I really witnessed to her and invited her to give her life to the Lord. She was on the fence about it.
Before discovering signs of life on my sonogram, though, I had told Judy about my divine encounter at home. I expected her to look at me incredulously, but she was fascinated.
Once the pregnancy was confirmed, that fascination turned into awe of God and a deeper yearning to know Him.
That is when I realized that the testing of my faith was not only to increase it personally, but to awaken it in others. Through my experience, a non-Believer was able to see the supernatural power of God at work in my life and recognize that He truly is real and He does speak.
Judy told me she had never seen a case like that in all her many years of nursing. My pregnancy timeline was spot on, to the day.
When it was all said and done, there was no denying I was pregnant from the moment God told me, but medically, it was too early to detect the pregnancy.
It still amazes me every time I think about it!
God got the glory out of that, just as He is going to get the glory out of what you’re going through if you don’t get weary and stop believing.
I know you may not know how He will perform His word concerning you. I realize that it can be incredibly difficult to cling to faith when all the evidence says there is no evidence of what you’re believing.
Still, if you can hold on to your faith, trust God’s sovereignty, in due time you will see His hand at work.
And it won’t just be for you.
It will benefit others around you who will not be able to deny that the Lord has done an amazing thing.
Friend, He wants to be glorified through your life and make you a witness. He wants your experience to be a testimony of His power, so that, through you, others will be drawn to Him.
If you’re walking in His will, obeying His commands and are feeling unfairly singled out by life, there is a deeper purpose.
So don’t be discouraged.
Don’t be quick to assume this sickness is unto death, or that this season of difficulty, lack and turmoil is forever.
Rather, latch onto faith. Know that this situation will work out for your good and His glory.
Cling to His promises.
Just as I had a revelation that could not immediately be validated through manifestation, you may be walking through a similar test. Even so, God is faithful.
He brought me out and made me a witness to my nurse and others.
Your turn is next.
Whatever you may be going through, God sent this word to let you know, again, it is going to work out for your good and most importantly, for His glory! Watch and see. God has an awesome plan.
To help you embrace this truth, I feel led to stir up a very familiar passage of scripture into your cup of inspiration. They are the words of God, spoken through the Prophet Jeremiah, to the Israelites who had been carried from Jerusalem into Babylonian captivity.
Though the Lord’s chosen people had to endure this bondage for 70 years, He reminded them that He was still faithful to fulfill His word.
This is where we get Jeremiah 29:11 from, which says, “‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.’”
As you drink down the contents of your cup, may it encourage you in times when the divine revelation you have received looks different from the natural reality you are living.
Know that God has a greater plan that goes beyond your current circumstances.
Not only can you expect to personally witness His miraculous power in your life, but also, expect to become a witness to others because of His miraculous power working in your life.
Greater is on the way.
Now let’s pray together.
God, in times when I wrestle with the fact that my reality doesn't line up with what You have spoken to me, help me believe and trust You anyway. Please give me the strength to stand in faith while awaiting manifestation, because deep in my heart, I know, if You said it, You will bring it to pass. I declare that it will all work out for my good and for Your glory. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
As always, thanks for reading and until next time... may today's cup of inspiration uplift, encourage, and empower you!
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