It was in the early days of my husband Kenya and I launching out into business as we believed God had instructed us to.
God, where are you? I wondered.
Things just didn’t seem fruitful. I was expecting growth. My motto was, “If you build it, they will come.”
I believed that.
But they didn’t come.
We had bought all these supplies, but there was no demand for what we were offering.
Could God have brought us that far to leave us? Had He ignited a dream in our hearts to impact the world for Him with our divinely bestowed gifts, only to allow failure to cool the burning embers?
I couldn’t figure out what the problem was.
Was God testing me? Testing us? Had either of us heard Him correctly? Did He really tell us to step out in faith into entrepreneurship?
I started thinking.
The whole business idea originated with Kenya.
I was just minding my business, enjoying marriage and child-rearing, when He felt the Holy Spirit’s urging to launch.
I thought I would be in the supportive wife role, you know, just let him do it all.
By degrees, Kenya began releasing more roles and I was taking them on out of necessity. He had a job and couldn't keep up with everything.
My efforts to pick up the slack eventually just grew into me running the business.
It became clear that God had different plans for me. Reluctantly, I accepted His will.
With that, I expected everything to fall into place. I don't know why I did. Nowhere in the word of God does it promise that obedience would lead to an adversity-free life.
I had so many questions in my mind and not nearly enough answers.
Well, on this particular occasion, I was upset because, after our seemingly productive conversation was over, a client went silent on me.
Simply put, we needed to pay some bills at home. Times were lean then and Kenya's job wasn't enough, on its own, to make ends meet.
This client was supposed to be sending in a payment. I felt like I had gotten a breakthrough, only for things to fall through, again.
I had a pity party.
I pouted and wondered why each time I took two steps forward, the next three would be in the opposite direction.
That’s what I told myself.
Have you ever been through a season like that?
Well, guess what I did?
Before sinking all the way into a valley of despair, I decided to do something different. I shook myself and said, We’re not doing that today, Dianna.
No moping and sulking. Either you’re going to believe God, or you’re not.
I was in a place where I was determined to trust Him to order my steps, even though I couldn’t trace His steps.
I fell off the faith wagon for a minute, but, by the grace of God, got back on.
I didn’t know exactly what the Lord was doing, but I was tired of fretting and flip-flopping. That was getting to be exhausting.
So I prayed some more, got my attitude together, fixed my face and refused to worry about it.
The next time I went into my business email, I discovered a message from that client that had been sitting there for like two or three days.
They were checking in to see if I had received the payment and wondering why I had not reached out yet.
There I was, momentarily going crazy over something that was already done.
I was relieved. I also learned a lesson: I could not fall apart whenever answers didn't materialize quickly. I had to be more disciplined in my faith than that.
Though I didn't like it while I was going through a dry season, I learned a lot and experienced true spiritual growth. I discovered what it meant to wait patiently upon the Lord while remaining confident in His good plan.
Eventually and gradually--very, very gradually--things began changing. As God provided resources, we were able to serve more people and lead more souls to Christ.
Friend, your time will come.
You may be in a season where you have no shred of evidence that the answer for which you have earnestly prayed is near.
That's difficult, I know.
From where you’re standing, it may look like your petitions have pretty much bounced off the sky, without ever reaching the ears of the Father.
But don’t you believe that.
God has heard your cries and the voice of your supplication.
You have to believe it.
Is that always easy?
No, particularly not when you are hard-pressed and need things to shift in your favor quickly. You want to know that everything is alright, right now. But the Lord does not always reveal things to you at precisely the moment you wish Him to.
He does things in His own timing.
He often allows you to wait; tests your faith; and lets you go through contradictory circumstances to teach you to place your confidence in Him despite what it looks like.
Don’t grow anxious.
Walk by faith.
Even through your time of barrenness, when nothing seems to be producing or working, don’t give up hope. God will honor His word and empower you to fulfill your purpose in the earth.
At this moment, if you feel like the waiting period is lasting too long and you sense your faith slipping, I’m stirring Hebrews 11:11 into your cup of inspiration, which says, “And by faith even Sarah, who was past childbearing age, was enabled to bear children because she considered him faithful who had made the promise.”
As you drink down the contents of your cup, you will be inspired to believe God before manifestation comes. Just as biblical heroes of faith, like Abraham and Sarah, had to trust the Lord through difficult times, you and I must do the same.
Just trust that the prayers you have prayed have already been answered. At the right time, you will bear fruit. You will produce.
Until then, stand firmly in faith, knowing that He is faithful that promised.
Now let’s pray.
God, when I cannot see evidence that You are working in my favor, I feel tempted to worry and fret. But today, I choose to believe in what You said, despite what I see. I know that You are faithful to perform Your word concerning me. I thank You in advance. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
As always, thanks for reading and until next time... may today's cup of inspiration uplift, encourage, and empower you!
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