Delirious. It's the only word I can think of to describe the way I was feeling yesterday morning at 6AM when my alarm began blaring. I'd just gone to bed at 5AM and my eyes felt like someone had poured sand in them.
As you may know, this past week has been filled with trips to the hospital to visit my dad and then, late nights trying to catch up on what I couldn't do during the day. Sleep had quickly become a luxury I couldn't afford and yesterday, my tank was on empty.
I was physically and mentally drained. Plain and simple.
Plus, the temperatures outside had significantly dropped and the cold chill from outdoors had crept into the house, making it feel all drafty. The overcast sky and the sound of the gentle rain tapping the windowpane in my bedroom made it a perfect morning just to throw the covers back over my head and go to sleep.
All was perfectly quiet and still. I wanted to cry thinking about having to move, but I figured that it would've been somewhat ridiculous to be reduced to a blubbering mess over something I knew the Lord wanted me to do.
I had a ministry engagement to fulfill--one that the Holy Spirit inside of me wouldn't let me cancel.
I was on assignment and though it was a real fight to get myself up and out of bed, I knew God had work for me to accomplish on His behalf and this wasn't the time to back out of it.
I figured I'd just catch up on some shut-eye later.
So, I got myself together and made it to that ministry engagement and the Lord moved mightily. When it was over, I had no doubt that pressing my way was the right thing to do. After I got home, I crashed... it was beautiful.
Sometimes, you'll have to press your way too, even when you don't feel like it, because there will be times when what you want to do, will contradict what you need to do, thus creating an internal struggle.
You see, in those seasons when you're going through tough times, you have to be determined to place your conviction above your condition.
My conviction said, God told you to do something so get out of this bed girl; but my physical and mental condition said, it's been a rough week--both physically and emotionally draining-- and right now, you need to just rest.
My conviction won out.
I pray that, in the midst of life's storms, yours will too, especially when your trials and tribulations make you want to give up and when you feel tired and ill-equipped to carry on.
Now, of course there are those occasions when your physical, mental, or emotional condition may dictate that you cannot do some things. That's OK too. You have to take care of yourself and be wise in your decisions. But this post is speaking to those pivotal moments when you know deep down, that God is giving you supernatural strength and ability to rise above your limitations in order to carry out an assignment He's given you. In those cases, you need to press.
Trust me, I know that He'll give you the grace and power to walk through the doors He's opened when you choose your conviction over your condition.
Today, I admonish you to be strong in the midst of trouble. Know that the Lord is with you, strengthening and carrying you through every test. I'll just leave you with the scripture that's been helping me to sustain: "And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness" (2 Corinthians 12:9a KJV).
By the way, thanks so much for all your prayers. Dad is doing so much better and is finally at home recovering.
As always, thanks for reading and until next time... may you be empowered to prosper!
Dianna Hobbs
