At the time, she was going through breast cancer treatment when her doctors discovered a huge blood clot in her jugular vein. The condition is known as Internal Jugular Vein Thrombosis.
When I heard about it, I took a deep breath and prayed. I did not want to worry. But when I went to see Mom in the hospital and laid eyes on the protruding area that looked extremely uncomfortable, anxiety put me in a choke hold.
Of course the medical team had to tell the family the risk factors involved in the treatment, which is never easy to hear.
If you or a loved one have ever been seriously ill, you know how intense it is when you’re listening to the prognosis and all that could go wrong.
Downright nerve-racking, right?
Although we know certain statistics and data lean toward a “worst case scenario” and may not happen, naturally, we feel some level of tenseness about the not-so-great possibilities.
I certainly did.
Our family learned that the clot could travel to the brain and become fatal.
Specialists said they were hoping for the best as they gave Mom medication to reduce the clot’s size and eventually, if all went well, dissolve it completely.
After taking in that information, I felt weighted down and sad. My dear mother was already going through enough with chemotherapy and multiple infections ripping through her body.
I wanted relief for her so much, but instead, received more terrible news.
Thinking about the what-if’s got to be too much.
Once you start playing that game, there’s no turning back. The human imagination is a powerful thing and can be overwhelming.
In fact, that’s the perfect word.
I was overwhelmed.
But staying that way led me down a bad path. It was like getting sucked into a vortex or whirlwind of worry. I was carried away and didn’t know how to get back to stability, peace and joy.
A turning point in my journey came when I realized the whole thing was out of my hands. I was just making myself sick by obsessing over it.
No amount of worrying, fretting, bawling, dwelling on the doctors’ reports, or wringing my hands together would change the season we had to walk through.
I had a moment of clarity.
I realized the situation was too much for me. Physically, spiritually, mentally and emotionally, it was beyond my capacity to handle. I had maxed out. I was completely spent.
I depleted every ounce of strength I had trying to be tough, trying not to worry, trying to hold it together, trying, trying, trying—and failing miserably, might I add.
It was time for me to stop trying and start trusting.
I had to trust God and give that thing completely over to the Lord.
So I did.
I released it and shifted that burden from my hands to His feet. I cast all my cares and anxiety upon Him, as 1 Peter 5:7 says.
Did you know that word “cast” in that scripture means “to throw”?
So then, you have to learn to take whatever is troubling you today--whatever--and throw that burdensome stuff away from you and over to the Lord. He can handle the load. You cannot.
Friend, when I threw my burdens that were weighing me down, talk about relief!
I didn't say all the problems were fully resolved. They weren't. I just was no longer trying to shoulder the burden and bear the weight of them. I literally released them to the Lord.
You know what He did?
Worked it all out for me.
Today, I’m still praising God for what He did in my mother’s life. She is cancer-free and healthy. But at the time, when I had to release her to the Lord, I did not know what the outcome would be. Things looked unfavorable. Our family was rocked like a ship traveling on stormy seas.
But Jesus was the anchor of my soul.
He is your anchor too.
Go to Him. Trust Him through this.
Give it all to Him.
Whatever you’re facing, recognize that you cannot control the variables. How the story ends and all that happens in between is beyond you.
None of it, however, is beyond God.
He is in control.
Give it, better yet, throw it to the only One who can handle it.
His name is Jesus.
Now please join me in praying for the following individuals on our "Thoughtful Thursdays" prayer list.
My son is abusing drugs. He is soon to be 22 years old. He recently broke into my home after putting him out. He steals. He doesn't work and refuses to be educated. I am afraid that because of the drugs, he will soon resort to violence towards me. I am a single mom. His father died of cancer when he was 14. He also has low self-esteem where he doesn't take care of daily hygiene. Thank you for praying. My faith tells me that God will hear your prayers and will send direction.
God brought me through one of the most prestigious colleges in the country on faith, hopes, and dreams, and now that I have graduated I have struggled to secure employment. I have done temporary work for years since I have graduated and have been on-and-off public assistance. I believe I have finally reached my season but I just ask for a prayer that an opportunity will bring me that breakthrough. I have claimed this in the name of Jesus. Thank you all.
I am requesting prayer for two sisters who were placed in our home by Division of Family Services due to sexual abuse. These girls lived with us for over a year until recently, they were removed from our home and placed with family. I am able to see the girls daily as they attend an after school program where I am employed. The girls come to the program looking as if no one takes care of them. They have asked if they can come back to our home. I am praying that God will bring them back to us soon.
It is not like me to ask strangers for prayer, but right now I feel a stranger's prayer might be best. I am really finding it hard to trust my husband with whom I reconciled about 6 months ago after years of separation due infidelity and abandonment. I felt (still feel) God led me is to reconcile, but this has been the hardest thing I've ever done. The old hurt is still there and I don't think he understands my need to be secure and reassured and to be able to trust him. A lie - about anything - is reason in my mind to distrust him all over again. If you will lie about something small (when you have no reason to), you will lie about other things. Strangely, I am the one who wants to walk (run) away now.
The marital discord is but one of the pressures on me. Work, raising a child, missing my deceased brother, and life in General have worn me down. I cry constantly and I'm crying now as I sit at my desk at work. I truly want to give up - on the marriage...on everything.
I've read your “daily cups” for a while now. Most recently, you said God cares about very little detail in your life. Just this week, you said “you can take it”. I don't think I can...please pray for me.
I'm requesting prayer for my father-in-law, Morris. He's been diagnosed with stage 4 liver cancer. Although two of his sons are grown with children of their own, he still has a 12 year old son to finish raising so we are all praying and believing for his healing. Thank you for including him in your prayers.
Pamela Henderson wrote:
To my sisters in the faith, I write to you and ask that you would stand in prayer with my family and I. We have experienced many hardships these past few years and I have had enough and am believing God for breakthrough. I was recently diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis and working has become almost impossible for me. I can't stop working because my husband and I have been separated for quite some time and my income is the only one in the household right now.
In the midst of all of these ups and downs with doctor visits, bills, and confusion, my oldest daughter made a wonderful life changing decision. She decided to go to a private Christian based college and nothing makes me happier than to know what I have poured into my child, is now coming forth in her actions and choices. Please pray that our father would bless her with the rest of the money that she needs for school. We came up about four thousand dollars short, but I know who can provide.
Philippians 4:19 says, “For my God shall supply all of my needs according to his riches in glory, by Christ Jesus.” I stand on that as I continue to believe God for my marriage, finances, children, and the future. Thank you for taking the time out to touch and agree in prayer with my family and I. Be blessed and don't stop praying!
I have been writing and singing songs for over 15 years but I don’t have any way to get them out. I believe they are intended to be a blessing to others. But I don’t currently have the resources or connections to share my music with the world for Christ’s glory. Please pray for me that God will give me guidance and direction. I really feel I am supposed to share my music. Thank you.
My husband and I are suffering in our marriage and my husband has asked for a divorce. I need pray for a God to soften his heart and allow him to see clearly.
Lord, what I’m dealing with is too big for me. It’s too hard for me. It’s too confusing for me. It’s too overwhelming for me. But it is not too much for You! So here I am, Your child, asking You Father to move in my life. Work these numerous situations out that I am facing the way only You can.
I also ask that You let Your perfect will be done, give me the strength to accept what You allow, and the faith to know that all things are working together for my good. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
As always, thanks for reading and until next time... may today's cup of inspiration uplift, encourage, and empower you!
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