I can hardly believe it as I’m typing it. Where has all the time gone? When did she go from being a toddler to a teenager?
I remember bringing her home from the hospital tightly swaddled, doing everything in my power to protect her delicate face from the blustery wind on that cold February day. My heart was bursting with gratefulness.
You see, before giving birth to Kyla, I went through one of the darkest seasons of my life. The year was 1998 when Kenya and I were dealt the crushing blow of having our first pregnancy end with the announcement, “I’m sorry, Mrs. Hobbs, but it looks like you have had a miscarriage.”
What I thought was a routine prenatal checkup turned into a heart-breaking day when the heartbeat I longed to hear was no more. There was only silence as the technician rubbed the ultrasound probe across my slightly protruding belly.
I recall the slight frown on her face as she began pressing buttons rapidly on the sonogram machine’s keyboard. I was hoping that didn’t signal trouble. When I asked, “Is everything okay?” and she replied, “Let me go get the doctor,” I still didn’t want to believe the worst.
When the devastating news was revealed, I felt empty, depressed and physically weak. I refused to eat. I could not sleep. Everything reminded me of the baby I would never hold in my arms after carrying this precious gift for four months.
Miscarrying was the last thing on my mind. I thought I was out of the danger zone, because that’s what everyone had told me. They said if I got through my first three months, I would be alright. But that was not true in my case.
So when I discovered I was pregnant with Kyla following that ordeal, I had confused and conflicting emotions raging within. On the one hand, I was incredibly excited and thankful. On the other hand, a little voice kept saying, you’re not going to give birth. You’re going to lose this baby, too.
One day, I was standing in my room. At the time, I was eight months pregnant with Kyla, when all of a sudden, thoughts of what might go wrong attacked my mind all at once. Overwhelmed and overcome by emotion, I fell to my knees and wept bitterly.
I was still grieving the child I lost and didn’t feel strong enough to fight the mental battle the enemy was waging against me. I prayed that God would give me peace and confidence that He would bring me safely through delivery.
And you know what?
After that severe meltdown, the presence of the Lord comforted me. I chose to lean on His strength, because I had none left. I can truly say that 2 Corinthians 12:9 is true. His strength is made perfect in our weakness.
He upheld me and held my hand.
So every time we celebrate Kyla’s birthday, I think about the faithfulness of the Lord, as well as the terror of fear that can easily grip our hearts when we don’t trust Him. I know it can be hard to look ahead and believe for good things to happen when you have suffered losses, setbacks and endured failures. The enemy loves to remind us of past hurts and disappointments to torture us and make us believe things won’t work out.
But he is a liar.
Although I don’t know why Kenya and I lost our first child, I do know that the Lord healed our hearts and restored what we lost. We are now the proud parents of four.
Friend, I don’t know what you might have lost or what heartbreak you have endured, or may be enduring right now, but the Lord wants you to know, it’s not over. He is not finished with you. He’s not through blessing you. Good things are on the way, despite the bad things that may have preceded them.
God is turning your situation around. Blessings are on the way. Restoration is coming! #Believe
While many of us have read or heard about Job in the Bible and we rejoice over his turnaround, when it comes believing God for our own breakthrough, we struggle.
We see that Job, an upright and holy man of God was living in total misery. He didn’t do anything wrong and yet, suffered a great deal. One moment, he was a picture of wealth, health and happiness. The next moment, death hit and Job mourned the loss of seven sons and three daughters. Lack hit and all of his wealth disappeared. Sickness hit and there were open sores all over his body. Relationship troubles hit and his wife turned on him, telling Job to curse God and die. Even his once loyal friends lost respect for Job and began blaming him for his trials.
Job was being hit from every angle, with no sign of relief in sight. But in due time, God intervened. In Job 42:10, we learn that the Lord not only restored Job, but He gave him twice as much as he had before. This faithful servant of God received double.
Can you believe God for double? He’ll do it in your life, just as He did it in Job’s life.
Still today, we serve the God of the double portion. You will receive deliverance. Restoration will come. You may not know how or when, but know that God will do it.
Interestingly, biblical scholars say, in Hebrew, Job’s name means “the persecuted one.” His name reflected his life. It was full of persecution, suffering, pain and distress. But, despite the meaning of his name, God ordained that Job would not be perpetually defined by his struggle.
He came out of a season of persecution and into a season of restoration.
Just as Job wasn't, you will not be defined by what you lost, what you currently lack, or the areas in which you’ve suffered in the past. To look at your life right now, someone might label you, like Job, “the persecuted one,” or “the struggling one,” “the depressed one,” “the forgotten one,” “the lonely one,” “the sick one,” or “the defeated one.”
But the Lord has a plan and you are about to become “the restored one,” “the victorious one,” “the prosperous one,” “the delivered one.”
Begin expecting and thanking Him for restoration. Rejoice for your double portion. Know that God is turning things around in your favor. You're coming out. Your season is changing for the better.
To help you confess this truth, I’m stirring Isaiah 61:7 NIV into your cup of inspiration, which says, “Instead of your shame you will receive a double portion, and instead of disgrace you will rejoice in your inheritance. And so you will inherit a double portion in your land, and everlasting joy will be yours.”
As you drink down the contents of your cup, rebuke discouragement. See your present difficulties and harrowing circumstances as transitional phases on your road to breakthrough.
Be assured of this: God’s word will come to pass in your life and He will restore double.
Now let’s pray.
God, I have been hurt, disappointed and unfulfilled in some areas of my life. But I know this is not all You have for me. You will heal the broken places and restore what I have lost. So, today, by faith, I thank You for my double portion and anticipate all the blessings You will pour out. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
As always, thanks for reading and until next time... may today's cup of inspiration uplift, encourage, and empower you!
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